Feeling Despicable Is An Emotion… let’s start there.
You know that point you get to when you’re always in a depressing state, like your soul is soaked in deep shit, you start to think nothing matters.
But it’s not that you think that you don’t matter, it’s everyone else. Like you’ve gotten to that point of chronic depression that you start to see everyone else as inferior. And so, without war coming to you, you just open mouthed say, “I’ve been through worse.” We all know that always starts a competition, but because we’ve made ourselves believe that our stories are so bad, we just got to win over everyone else.
Everyone else is wrong. Everyone else has the problem.
But if they ask nicely, you could give them the solution. Because you’ve always got the solution…duhh
Now that believe, that’s different, that’s next level, top of the hills…that’s much worse. That depressing state of single mindlessness, that’s what I’m starting to understand as
Narcissistic. Now you’re allowed to correct me if I’m wrong. Work my brain. In the comment section. I’m going to argue but…let’s go.
Moving On…
Believing that on one else is involved in the world, except you. And even though on most days, you don’t even see yourself, you rate yourself, you judge yourself, just like the outside people would do.
But you’ve gotten so tough, that you take the cowards gun and shoot yourself in the face, calling it bravery. Carrying your shoulders up and walking with a hunched back that you’ve made yourself believe is a fountain.
All in all, just like the outside people predicted, you played yourself.
Let me explain. Feeling Despicable Is an emotion, you don’t have to cover up and I’m saying this with guilt because I’m like that.
See eh, my wall is so thick… You, my dear you are no body, you can not break it, you can not shake me. In fact, I don’t see you.
It’s easy to fade out, this world is way too populated. In fact, your street alone, in your family self, it would be a miracle if they know how to pronounce your name right.
So how about we help ourselves by allowing ourselves be involved. Let us notice everyone else around us. They are not out to get us.
We should not allow ourselves shift from one issue (depression…) To a matter far from resolution.
I hope with this few points of mine…if any…that I’ve been able to convince you and myself that alone + lonely is a disease as well. Thank you and see you in my next post.
Till then. Stay blessed.
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