What’s happening…

To be honest, I have been struggling to gain balance, and the funny thing is, I don’t know if that’s possible ((to be struggling to gain balance)) but I’ve found it really really hard.

I am stuck where I am, gazing, shamefully, at where I want to be and the route I’m taking.

I have so much I want to do, and in my head, I have scaled through all of it, mounting up heights I didn’t even know were possible, ALL IN MY HEAD.

I keep replaying my age, and I know this is a toxic thing to do to oneself, but I can’t seem to see pass the lost opportunities, the drowning mistakes and the abominable counts. It’s almost hilarious – how much I’ve failed.

NO, it’s actually hilarious, because I know I’ve got so much to give, but for some wicked reason, I just keep limiting myself.

For years, I’ve felt like a feature image in my life. Like, I’m here for a period and I’m gone and I’m back again and gone again.

My life keeps going round, in reverse.

But now, I see it, I’m not stuck, I’m going backwards, it’s like, I’m intentionally fixing myself at the spot.

World mental health day is coming up in a few days to more than a week. But I want us to remember that mental health recognition, is not set for a day only, it’s a daily thing, it’s a daily struggle, it’s a daily survival mode shit.

So take this,

your mind answers to you, you don’t answer to your mind

You are in control of your thoughts and your thoughts process

It’s okay to doubt. It’s okay to be negative at times, believe me – overly positive people annoy me to my core, but we need to know and always remember where to draw the line.

We are in charge of our movement: we are responsible for the change that happens, that could happen and will happen.

I hope I’m back for good this time. Even though I’m hoping to get fully cooked 😹. I mean I’m working on setting up a better blog for myself and for YOU who kept liking my posts, even when I hadn’t posted anything new in a whilllllee

Thank you so much. Please keep liking. Please share. Please leave your comments. Like like like. Share share share. Comment comment comment.

I appreciate you all.

Your mind. Your wellness matters. Don’t compromise.